Why am I always called to initiate in some of my relationships? One friend "well you could call me" HELLO so could you!! I do believe phone lines work ing both directions?? Even call and say Hey, can you call me back… Hello!!! I just realized that I am always intiating… Okay not always in every relationship, but in this one yes. They could e-mail me too…once in a while they "respond" but that is just not enough to say I appreciate you… HELLO!
"You teach people how to treat you." this statement seems to keep popping up. What am I telling people about me? What vibs do I throw off anyway?
Sigh… then when people really like me and I like them… there are barriers and I have to walk away. I ….grrrrr…. lol
But I have learned and I know God is good and He has promised to bless me. I do not think I am big enough to screw it all up completely. I might delay it, I might change it, but I don’t think I can stop it. Right? One of my friends might be quick to say "yes you can..sin and Shazam blessings gone promises LOST" She probably does not mean it the way I just wrote it, but when I hear her explain it I feel like God is not forgiving or gracious… But when I look at the lineage of Christ I am reminded that God blesses those who make mistakes too. So look to the light aim for the heights and do your best.
I guess I’ll keep calling and e-mailing… they can keep responding, and maybe one day I’ll know why.