When light enters the window darkness is revealed.
Sometimes in life we need to have someone open the blinds on our thoughts and actions. Someone to say “Excuse me? What do you think you are doing?” or per haps it is more like. “that was not very nice or considerate!”
This gives us the opportunity to change, apologize and grow in our lives. Sometimes it is really just a wake-up call when we are faltering or falling into a dark spot. It is a blessing, even when it feels like the end of the world.
Usually I am a quiet and kind person. However there is a little girl inside me who likes to jokes and pranks. I have tried most desperately not to let her loose when it is dangerous or feelings will be hurt. But as the sneaky little girl she is every once in a while she escapes and I hurt someone through my thoughtless actions. Then I am reminded I need to take account of them and grow up.
I am learning I need to see the silver lining in these events and forgive myself for making mistakes. I am far from perfect and I need to keep that in mind. It is when I forget that I might make a mistake, or forget to consider all the ramifications that I walk head on into a wall of hurt. But it is wallowing in that hurt that is a trap as well. I spank the little girl in me too much, she can not always behave, she makes mistakes and I need to love her anyway. Teach her to listen and add one more thing not to do to her list of rules, but love her.
Luke 11:4
Forgive us our sins, for we also forgive everyone who sins against us. And lead us not into temptation.
Lord this is my prayer. Please Lord keep my eyes and heart alert to the things that might hurt others or myself. Guide my thoughts to be closer to you.
Poopy art.
I was challenged to take what I saw in bird poop and bring it to life. This is Mildred. Sorry to any Mildreds out there I do not know you.
Her boots are some scrap of paper long embedded in the cement. Her body is a glorious bird poop splatter, her eyes a seaperate poop, and finally her had is it’s own poop pile. Such a lovely lady lol
Astronautical Voyage
This is my first marker on canvas work with my alien, astronaut and space ship. I like the lips and eyeballs as well.
Recently I have started a series of astronaut pictures. Each one has either the astronaut, alien or space ship in it. They really are depicting my voyage through design and art. I really want to learn more hand done techniques for typography and art.
Recently I went to Urban Source which is a recycling store in Vancouver. They really have a cool concept for a store. You can either buy individual items or use the paper bags they have and fill them up. The paper bags come in different sizes and prices. The bigger the bag the more you can stuff in it and the more you pay, but really it is a great deal since the range of items they have there is really cool. They had film tins there which I could see using for a time capsule or a end table top or game holder. The possibilities are endless really.
Back to the astronaut pictures. I think I am more the alien than the astronaut in the pictures. Usually the astronaut is oblivious to the alien watching him as he goes about his exploring. I feel like the astronaut might not even know he is there. Hmm I think I will make the alien do something to get noticed, because he is my favourite character.
Well Cheerio my fine feathered friends, and if you think of an experiment in media I should try. Please drop me a line. Thanks.
I do not want to
I do not want to ask
the questions I need to know
I do not want to wait so long
that it is too late to let you go
I do not want to wonder
all the things I do
I do not want to think
of all the “used to do’s”
I know you are still waiting
I know that you still care
I know that you are busy
I know that you have hope
I know that you waiting
for what I do not know
So now I asked the questions
Now I do my time
Now I sit and wonder
Am I that blind
Why dont I want to
Why can I just do
Why do I need to
Why is it up to me
No one can live my life
only just me
blast! 
Reflections during a captured moment lol
Concept development… Brainstorming…
Notes from a pioneering female botanist
Edification of a pioneering botanist in Crete
Historical notes from pioneering botanist
Postcards from Crete. Notes of a pioneering botanist.
Descriptions of Crete through the eyes of a botanist.
Immersed in Crete comments from a pioneering botanist.
Notes imbued with the passion of Crete, through the eyes of a pioneering botanist.
My final:
Postcards from Crete. Notes of a pioneering botanist.
I am starting to get creative again and excited to play with things
I was busy taking pictures of things that one might find in a woman’s memorybox and these guys were one of the items… they just seemed to come alive and I knew I needed a break!
jumping beads
What
What was that thing that once did we know
What was that feeling we had to let go
What was the name of the person we were
What is going so fast that it blurs
What is the colour of the dress we wore
What is the something we want even more
What is the promise we said we would keep
What was the story we saw in our sleep
What is the point I am trying to make
What in the world is it all gonna take?
It will take the time that is blurring by!
New Tie
I really like this joke, but I am a punny person anyway.
The Tie
A man goes into a restaurant and the waitress stops him.
“Sorry sir, you need to wear a tie to enter”.
So the man goes back to his car and looks around, but there’s no necktie to be found. So he takes his jumper cables, wraps them around his neck, ties a nice knot, and lets the ends dangle about.
He goes back to the restaurant, where the waiter says, “Well, OK, you can come in……
….Just don’t start anything.”
I want to be in marketing :-)
Why Marketing is where it is at!!!!
An interoffice softball game was held every year between the marketing and support staff of one company.
The support staff whipped the marketing department soundly.
To show just “how” the marketing department earns their keep, they posted this memo on the bulletin board after the game:
“The Marketing Department is pleased to announce that for the 1996 Softball Season, we came in 2nd place, having lost but one game all year. The Support Department, however, had a rather dismal season, as they won only one game.”
I’m BACK!
Yes yes… I know all my adoring fans are waiting. Yes all two of you! You know who you are too, you lucky devils you!
I am back in La Crete, things are going well. I started working on a new “logo” and business card design for the store. I have a few ideas, but none stuck in glue yet. I might need to design the business cards first and then a logo later. Seems backward but I am having trouble assessing the essence of LRT that would best represent us.
I am learning to ask for what I want and to tell people how I feel. What a freeing concept, and why was I not able to do this before? I always spoke in riddles and didn’t know what I wanted. I know now, well a few things anyway.
1. I want to take more online training so I can be the best Graphic Designer possible. I asked my most challenging teacher if she knew any other alternatives for online training as I have already taken all of the courses offered by Ai. She is looking into a lead that is offered from Australia of all places. Hopefully they off an undergraduate program that is available online. If not I will keep looking.
2. Is something I want to shout out from the mountains and post on Facebook, but I need permission and to talk to a few people first. And to be honest is something personal that might not be what I think. Or turn out how I hope.
3. This could be the most important of all. I am learning that God really is interested in my life and He is in control of the direction it is taking. He is a gracious and forgiving Lord as well who loves me more than I can love Him. I am ever slipping and sliding, but He is always leading and guiding.
I have goals… I have dreams! Praise the Lord can this be 
The first day of the last week!
Such an auspicious occasion really, such an eventful quarter, a turning point in my life I must say.
I have been trying to figure out what triggered this battle in my mind that resulted in me going back home.
Okay I sat back on this idea, and I know it is all good. I have learned that I have made some really great friends whom I shall remember for a long time. This has been a good experience and I can check off one thing off my bucket list, well the imaginary one in my brain!
The shock of the Japan earthquake & Tsunami remind me once more about why I am going home. I am needed there, my family is important to me and I want to fulfill the role I was born into. The one I resented, but is such a blessing truly.
Why did God choose to make our business so successful? Why did we start it at just the right time? Why did my dad, a farmer, think that this store was needed? Honestly so many stars aligned with this business that it has taken off to the sky with success. People love us, even though we bungle at times and make mistakes.
One company insisted to Telus that they wanted to revamp their whole network of 50+ phones but through US!!! Can we handle it? I sure hope so!
So starting April 1 I will be taking training and getting reworked back into the business. My folks want to retire, and man those are big shoes to fill. Lucky me I have 2 brothers to help do it!!
Anyway, still waiting to see what happens to our world with the reactors in Japan. Scary thought really.
Jokes
I have not found a good one in a while that I wanted to share…
A tough looking group of bikers were riding when they saw a girl about to jump off a bridge, so they stop. The leader, a big burly man, gets off his bike and says, “What are you doing?”
“I’m going to commit a suicide,” she says.
While he did not want to appear insensitive, he didn’t want to miss an opportunity he asked “Well, before you jump, why don’t you give me a kiss?”
So, she does and it was a long, deep lingering kiss. After she’s finished, the biker says, “Wow! That was the best Kiss I have ever had. That’s a real talent you are wasting. You could be famous. Why are you committing suicide?”
“My parents don’t like me dressing like a girl……”
My folks figure the “girl” wouldnt have to commit suicide, “she” was probably killed lol.
This one made me laugh because it took me by surprise.
My Fourth Vblog :) Early!!
Here is me drawing..well painting in ink! And reading a poem and telling a joke.
Attendance is low…
almost 50% of our class is missing for this week? Strange…what is different with this semester than others? I sure hope they figure this all out as there are some very talented people in this group that amaze me everyday.
Perhaps they will have what it takes to shape our future? Perhaps the ones who are missing already know how to do this in Fireworks. I find this Website creation to be interesting. I hesitate to say very interesting as i seem to be fickle about what interests me.
I was told that I have a very low attention span…and looking back at this blog post I am assured that it is extremely possible that it s so. Do I wish to change this about myself? Ah…No…I need this to survive life.
I am listen to everything around me and absorb it through the pores in my mind. Being surrounded by people all the time is exasperating to me. I will enjoy being back in La Crete, where the pace of life is slower.
I will miss the people and the variety of people that I get to meet. I can talk to almost anyone and enjoy their company. I will also miss school a little, but not the stress.
Decisions…no matter what one does there is no avoiding them. Ever going back to work in the store and attempt to “take over” where my dad wishes to leave off will involve decisions. How what when… and back to work for my brothers. I sure hope we can figure out a way to each feel that we are carrying the load together, instead of anyone feeling like they are being short changed or overloaded.
It should be interesting anyway.
YEAH!! Tax time is upon us
Tax time is so much fun! This year especially so! With my tuition as a expensive benefit that will get me some taxes back.
I am not sure how taxes will go for me this year as my parents start the process of handing over the business that I will now go back to. How will I keep my adventurous heart satisfied? I guess I will have mini adventures in my backyard? Perhaps tour the NWT as often as possible and not worry about anything.
Decision made, thoughts complete
Phew, some decisions are tough and take a while to make. Others take moments. How do we know what we have decided is the right thing?
I made an important decision today that I have been chewing on for 6 months. I am sure there will be people who think I made the wrong decision, and I know there are those who trust that I thought things through to come to this decision.
My advisor said,”In light of eternity will this matter?” I know it will not, GOd still has a big plan for me and this was one of the training sessions. What did I learn? I have lots to learn, but I am willing to make big decisions, try things out and I am seeking where He wants me.
I thought I knew, but then I hit this wall. I have straight A’s right now, but I am fighting for my life. Why? Some will think I should have kept fighting, others will think I am weak, and some will think I am just a failure. I do not care, I know the One whose opinion matters. He loves me the same. All He requires is that I seek Him, and I shall keep seeking.
I feel like the end of the world will be soon, and I am not in the place where I have the most influence for good. I need to go there with the knowledge that I have gained and trust God for the rest. He knows me and what I need, even though I do not.
I struggle with thinking I am weak, and a failure, but I “feel” calm and at peace. The last time I felt this way was New Years Day. I want to feel this more.
My how time flies…
This is week 8 out of 11 weeks. The clock is ticking and time is flying past. Projects, projects, projects… And only so much time.
I think my projects will be normal for some and I will give more time to others. The decision will be which gets what. My head swims when I think of projects and finals.
I look forward to the break and possibly finding ways to ignite my passion for Graphic Design again. Perhaps my “concept” about what I wanted for my future was not a strong owe and it needs more brain-storming and tours of different places of work. I wonder if the school has tours, it would be a good idea.
I have a start to each projects, now time to redefine them. I will tweak my “schedule” by allowing 4 hours work on Saturday but none on Sundays. I think this might make a good schedule, but I will need someone to keep me accountable.
New plans for this quarter
I am learning so much about school and myself. Now this week I have started to try a different approach to time management, as I have been working too much to be healthy. I talked to my advisor and together we came up with a plan to create a good balanced work life.
8 hrs per course a week. So with 5 courses that is a 40 hour work week. We will watch how that works for the rest of this quarter and not worry about the grades as I have learned the content and might not have time to put in the extra effort for those straight ‘A’s I have gotten so far. I will be happy with a B and a healthy mental state. I believe that I will end up being much more productive in the long run with this strategy.
I realize I have a tendency to be a work-a-holic and it is seems hilarious that I am so relived that by someone telling me that taking time to live my life is okay. I knew it, but I felt guilty when I took time for me and kept thinking about my projects. Now I hope to go to school, work the 8 hour day and then relax for the evening and sleep in the night. It is hard to change my thought patterns, but I will give it time and not be hard on myself with my grades.
Funny the things one has to learn about themselves and then yet wait till one NEEDS to change before changing.
Theresa
Mornings…
Here we go again! We have sunshine again and it is glorious! Last night I saw the my first lightning in Vancouver, and I was ready to hear more but only one was on order apparently.
I heard that there is loads of snow out on the mountains, and fresh powder means happy skiers and snowboarders. I guess that also means happy ski hill owners too? And perhaps busy hospitals…no wait! I think the fresh snow would help cushion the falls, right?
I have lots to do so no skiing for me, well I can use homework as an excuse! I have never downhill skied and I am afraid to start. I like cross-country skiing, but have not done that either this year. Hmmm…lots to do over the break it seems!
I write today…
Because I am wondering who else gets confused about quote marks? I am sure it aid somewhere that periods go outside the quote marks when not…Ah I see now, Question marks can go inside or outside of quote marks. “Then it all makes sense.”
“If they belong to the quote they appear inside?”
“Yes! But if they do not then they do not, see now?”
Did the teleprompter really buzz as Fred said “I chew gum”?
Okay, I find it frustrating that I am divided amongst many widely varying projects. I am sure there is a reason for this as well. It seems like the teacher confere together to plan our destruc…okay, okay! I will try that again.
It seems like the teachers get together to plan our learning curb, not only teaching us the skills, tools and programs we will need but also honing our ability to multi-task and bear the weight of the stress of deadlines. This is an intense course, but it is great!
My latest Vblog
Okay okay, it is old video that I made to send a friend. I edited it and created a video with captions. I have never posted this one and it is me talking. I showed my mother because it was of our family business. Her reaction…and I quote:
You put us on YouTube?
I could not tell what she was thinking…was this good or bad? Then she said I would have to show my dad, and that she was glad she was not shown in it. I think it was okay.
I made sure not to mention last names, and I edited out the comentary that I would think would offend my folks. I like it.
There ya go! Enjoy.
The Gods must be Crazy movie review…to come
Well tomorrow night I will watch the classic “The Gods must be Crazy” at my friend’s house.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=MNUUKirMfVM
What to review about it? What do I watch for? What will I/we obseve and laugh at? Will this be added to “Things that make Theresa laugh” Hmmm… Time will tell.
Will this be a good use of my time? I am starting final projects at school and know I will be burning the midnight oil soon enough. Currently I am sleeping soundly at night, well except for weekends when I tend to stay up a little late…or early…1am.
For now I will just breath and relax. I have concept development to do for Anne (Monday) and Derek (Tuesday). I feel like I have Wednesday nailed, I just need to print them. Thursday I have concept work to do for Jen and then Friday concept work for Francesco.
First quarter-basic drawing and learning the basics of Illustrator and Photoshop.
This quarter-concept development, basics of InDesign, a bunch of small programs for WWW, and continue working in Photoshop and Illustrator.
Roberto said that we should start to think of InDesign, Illustrator and Photoshop as individual tools to be used together for their various attributes. Photoshop for photo manipulation, Illustrator for illustrating and InDesign for typography and text. Sounds good! I am starting to get used to them all and enjoy their different contributions to my user experience. It is a bit of a learning curb as each program has similar tools, but different quick keys and ways the tools work.
Wow…this turned into a real long blog.
It worked!
It worked! I successfully wrote HTML in TextWrangler and linked my blog, myvideo, our PDF booklet, and lexicons. And then I uploaded it to the web using Filezilla.
Check it out!!
Now what to do with it? I wonder how they add all the animation for clicking “buttons”? Is it a Flash file that “plays” as you click the hyper-text?
I need to do a few more Vblogs for this class. I think I will try and do one tonight with Nels and one tomorrow with Deborah, Silvy and the gang. Group projects make for more fun they say! I can shoot video on my Blackberry Bold as well.
I feel dizzy right now for some reason that I do not understand. It just started now…is it from the excitment of HTML? Or the stress from midterms? At least I know it is not from bad sushi like Colleen was talking about last night…ewwwww.
I think I need a drink of water. I will go now. This class room tends to be hot, maybe it is from the heat?
Pot smoking neighbours…Grrrrr
Okay, I have been experiencing some weird panic attacks. I was not sure what they were from.
I am doing research today about the effects of Marijuana, because I think my neighbor is smoking pot in his apartment at night.
http://www.well.com/user/woa/fspot.htm
http://www.drugabuse.gov/infofacts/marijuana.html
Panic attacks are one of the effects listed.
I think I am going to smoke proof the walls between us as much as possible and continue to put a blanket in front of my bedroom door at night. I have no proof he is baking himself, but the stench is quite unique. I do not do drugs, and do not see why I have to just accept it and move on. I will not try and dictate to him what to do with his life and if it does not improve I will look for another apartment. Before I get so far into things I will talk to him.
I do not need panic attacks…school gives me that already.
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